"Live life as it should be,
See with the eyes of a child,
Hear every beat of life ,
Feel from deep within the heart
And smell the breath of love and life every second of the day."
Date: October 19th, 2001
My present employment is stressful. People say it is easy but for us, it is a drain.
Yesterday, in the midst of doing my work, I felt an awful urge to scream as loud as I could. I have never had that feeling before. I had my reasons for taking up this job offer three months ago but now that I have taken over the tasks required of me, I have come to the conclusion that there is no way I can continue there.
Why? Because I crave peace.
I come home worried that maybe I have missed a file or perhaps written the wrong message or perhaps e-mailed to the wrong people. And the next day, I dread going to work because I am worried whether a bomb has dropped. The work does not disappear when I leave work, it follows me home and preys on my mind.
*Sigh* .... and I am not the only one in the company with the same feelings. I have worked in a few companies (this is my fifth job) but wherever I went, I know I have done a good job and my employers have acknowledged my effort. But I feel, in this job, I seem totally incompetent. No matter how hard I try, things seem to happen.
May people out there brand me a job-hopper but I can not see myself working here for even a year without going into a great depression.
So now, to cheer myself up, I would like to share a beautiful story with you ....
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